I'm Almost There

Have you ever had that feeling that you almost had it. You almost knew exactly what it was that you needed to do. It was so close to completion. I have that feeling often. My goals are right there. I can see them. The trick is to make success a foregone conclusion. You have to work so effectively, so relentlessly, that it's impossible not to succeed. That even if you don't reach your original goal, you can live off the fruits of your labor alone.

200 Posts In A Year!

Okay, I'm almost there. This was a big challenge for me. I mean previously, I was doing like ten posts every ten years. But this time I decided to have a go at it. Try to actually succeed. It was hard, as I have a problem concentrating. But I was able to do it. And now I have to be ready for the next challenge that is at hand.

10,000 Hours?

I have reached the part in Malcolm Gladwell's book where he talks about the 10,000 hours. I already have that for reading, but I can't force myself to do anything else that often. 10,000 hours. That seems about right. Could you imagine if I could draw, write or program for five hours a day, for ten years? That would be my magnum opus.

Games Based In Africa

The US military is done to death in gaming. But what about games based on the African military? I had the idea of setting my military stealth action game in Africa. Don't know how that's going to work out.

Computer Acting Up

Yep, my $1,500 computer is acting up now. I think it may be because of the lack of internet connection at home. But basically the clock won't update, and it's having trouble starting. Other than that, it works fine. I had to go into the bios the other day, but the CPU wasn't overheating this time, at least.

Game Design Alter

I recently downloaded GDevelop onto my jump drive, but now my home PC is acting up on me. That brings up the old conundrum. If you want to be successful, you have to first succeed. But if you want to succeed, you have to first be successful.

G-Develop

I'm interested in trying this new software that helps you design games easily. Plus, it's optimized for Android/iOS (Unlike Flash). It's going to be fun to see what I can do with it.

Reporting Requirements

Yes, I do have a new business. It's called Battleganz LLC. I listed it as "the first black owned and black founded Triple-A game design company." It was hella hard to get it started, but once I decided that that's what I wanted to do, I sprong [sic] into action. Well, there is a federal requirement. I have to file an annual report every year (actually I think that's just a state requirement) and it will cost me $150. I've never filed an annual report. I hope I'm not required to hire an accountant to do that for me. I'll probably have no income to report. And the expenses will only be the incorporation fees. We shall see.

What Shall I Do Now?

Well, I have gone ahead and incorporated as a game designer. Battleganz LLC. It's amazing that I've come this far, but now is only the beginning, really. Not even the beginning, in fact. There's still so much I haven't learned. So many bridges I haven't burned...

Oh The Guilt

I did feel guilty about all of the time that I had spent playing games as a youth. Basically, by the time I needed to "succeed" all I had to show for myself was a high score on Metroid Prime and some unlocked characters in Resident Evil 4. I don't know. I don't game anymore, but I still like this industry. Imagination is important, damnit!

I Love This Industry

People don't think that hard about games. Games really allow them to not "think" about anything except the mechanic. Not that mechanic; the GAME mechanic. Anyway, if most people thought about how much time they spend playing games, and how much energy it takes, pretty much no one would play anymore. I remember my crowing achievement from childhood. Without prompting, I had played WCW vs NWO World Tour for 24 hours straight. Of course, the rest of my family was locked out of the use of the TV for those 24 hours, but nobody said anything about it. I was amazed for years after that. But games are a big deal. You can think so hard about something that it loses all meaning, but games keep everything "fresh". I don't know, I just love this industry.

One Concept I Really Like

One concept that I really loved from my gaming days was the concept of "Truck Football." I know that certain modern games have already done this to death, but I really loved playing Smuggler's Run Warzones in the "PVE?" game mode, where you play against a gang of AI, on two teams. It was sort of like football. You grab the "Merchandise" and carry it to the safe zone. The annoying part of that game mode was the fact that the game always "assumed" that you were the opposing ball carrier. I guess that was slightly easier to program, or they didn't want to have players pretending to be one role and then going for "ball." But it's nice to be reminded that I'm the human every once-and-a-while. I'm in control of me and my life. Up and at them!

Why, Oh, Why

I need to be able to see what I'm doing. I've got to get better at planning. Something has to give. Something has to change. Before I'm through with this, I have to rearrange everything. I need to start learning. I need to make myself the future.

Persnicketty Pocket Fest

Is that a good name for a game? I don't know. I wanted to make a game where you play as a child going to sporting events. The entire stadium is populated, and you watch the game from where you are. But I can't think of a good name.

The Things I Do

The things I do are for a specific purpose. No, I don't want to fail. But failure is inevitable, and necessary, as a route to ultimate success. I don't know what I have to do, but I can do something. I don't know where to go, but I can go to the place that teaches me where to go.

Books Of The Day

I picked up an HTML5 book that I used to own at the library. But what I really needed was an SEO book. I only found one book at the library with SEO in the title (the rest were checked out), so that's where I am right now.

Which One?

Do I wish to have a full website, or just a funnel? I don't know. They say that funnels are less expensive and more profitable, but I'm worried about the "endless upsells" of funnels. I'm afraid that they might distort my message. My image?

Beautiful Day

I don't know. I feel a little off today. It's nowhere near as bad as it used to feel. That TSF video was on point, though.